Nostalgia

So, I woke up this morning feeling good, but nostalgic.  I think it is because I had a dream that brought back some sights and smells (really) that are from my past.  I think that the human mind does this to us in order for us to never forget what we are and what has made us this way.

First I want to say what a roller coaster this week has been.  I got hired on at a place where I will be working with people that I have worked with before and love dearly.  We never really lost touch even though it has been 7-8 years since working with them and they have always been a great bunch of people.  I love the idea of being able to see them again on a daily basis and just being part of their lives.  On the same day I got a call from the place I was paid administrative leave from and they had to decided to let me go.  I loved the sense that I was helping peole at this job and worked, again, with incredible people, but there really was too much talent in one place to even dream of moving on up.  Plus I was tired of the pressures that they put on us daily.  I will miss the second place but I am thrilled with the replacement.  Again, emotions are the key thing.  It is a feeling of loss mixed with a feeling of happiness and peace.

Now my dream.  I dreamt that we (I don't know who) were driving by the beach and about 1/2 mile up the road the car broke down.  While whoever was fixing the car I walked down to the beach.  My entire dream was me walking on the beach.  I used to love the beach...a TON of memories occured there.  I even felt the cool breeze hitting my skin, the smell of the salt, the warm sun...everything about that place makes me feel at peace and alive.  So, I woke up feeling the same way, but missing the easy drive there.  I moved for California to Arizona and the closest thing that we have out here is the lakes (beautiful, but not quite the same feeling).  The beach was also a family favorite for mini vacations.

Maybe my dream was actually my mom and dad letting me know that they are together walking on the beach, enjoying each other again...at last.  That is where the inner peace is coming from and that is where the love will stay!