OK. So it has been a minute since my last post, but for good reason. On 8/29 my mother passed away after a somewhat long bout FIGHTING cancer. Since then I had to get my bearings straight, but now I have to get on. I mean afterall that is what we do as humans, right? We grieve (in our own ways), then move the heck on, right?
The thing that always got me about my moms cancer is that she is the one person who I didn't expect this from. I mean she was never a health freak or anything, but there are so many other people, including myself, that put themselves in high risk for cancer and she did none of those things. Don't get me wrong - I am not wishing this horrible disease on anyone...just doesn't make sense. Maybe it is because I know nothing about how the disease works. This whole experience has taught me that sometimes there really is no rhyme or reason behind things.
The fact remains that she is at peace now and that means more to me than anything. She couldn't live the life that she wanted to at the end and just wanted to go be with Daddy. It is funny how me along with some other people are the ones who are at peace right along with her because we know that she is happy, young, and with the man who was her world for 50+ years.
So, anyways, I just wanted to get these thoughts out. I think that I may have been holding them in for too long without a release. Now that it is over, I can move on. I'll be back soon!
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